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Whenever I’ve not been able to write in the past, it has been because there was something going on in my life that I could not or did not want to write about.

Some things are too trivial, others feel too huge.

Some are too private.  Others are not just my story to tell.

Many I worry are too self-indulgent, too judgmental, too superficial.

But there are times when my thoughts are filled with these things and writing about anything other than them seems impossible.

So, I end up in some kind of limbo, where I want to write something but just can’t seem to get started and end up watching Grey’s Anatomy instead.

Sometimes I’ll busy myself with anything other than the blank screen in front of me, and other times I’ll ignore everything else in favour of it.

Eventually it passes.

The thing that is holding me back will change course, or I find a way around it.

At the moment, I am in limbo again and I thought I did not know why.

But, I do.

It is because I thought I was on one road and I have since discovered it may be possible to embark on another.

There is a crossroads up ahead where I can turn around and continue as I was; or I can change direction and see where it takes me.

Where an entirely different future awaits.  One that a few years ago, I thought I wanted.

One that I am not sure I am ready to give up on entirely, but I am not ready to hop, skip and jump over to again either.

Most of me has moved on.

There is a saying that those who take the biggest risk get the biggest reward, but I wonder if sometimes the biggest reward can come from simply standing still.

Remaining steady on your feet and taking in the air around you.

I am happy here.

Sometimes saying no is not giving up at all, it is just letting go.


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Wife to a Greek God(zilla). Mother to our Grenglish son. Sometimes funny. Mostly not. Unless drunk, then I think I am hilarious.


  1. I second the goosebump comment! What you describe is eerily close to how I’m feeling right now. I have a choice, and I could stand still as well. In fact, that’s what I want to do, but I think the difficulty lies in finding the courage to do so. In our society we’re so programmed to always strive for more, for better, for upwards and onwards. Staying still is seen as complacency, but sometimes, like you, I wonder whether being content with steadiness and security is the smartest thing to do. Good luck with your decision, whatever it is.

    • and to you with yours…
      I agree, we are always told to take risks and reach for the stars, but there has to come a time when you get ‘there’ and know when it’s time to stop

  2. I know exactly what you mean. Knowing when to act on that moment and not is such a hard choice. Sounds to me like you have made the right decision.

  3. Life’s too short for just settling for OK! Good luck with it, whatever it is! :) x

  4. It sounds to me like this new direction is tempting you enough to make you want to take the plunge. Whatever it is, if it doesn’t work out at least you know you gave it a go. You have some wonderful and supportive people around you and they will stand by you whatever happens x
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  5. I’ve had a few crossroad moments in my life and have taken my decision and for better or worse it always seems to work out ok.
    I think you have to sit very still and listen to your heart, then you will have your answer. best of luck to you

    Powerful post again, loved reading it, was gripped from start to finish
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  6. Such a good post Sarah, and one that I think everyone will be able to recognise. Lots of love and luck to you making your decision – I know you’ll make the right one xxx
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  7. Just remember that not making a decision is a decision in itself, so whatever works for you will be good, and you can always change paths later on (take it from someone who has done this too many times to count!). And you are fab whatever you do! xx
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