Two years ago, I stood on the stage at Britmums Live and read out a post to 500 people about being hungover. Ironically, I was secretly pregnant at the time and had not touched a drop of alcohol in about 7-weeks.
I was a different person then.
My blog was a little over a year old and I had written a lot of posts about sausages & wine.
I had met a few other bloggers in person, but I had yet to be part of a community of bloggers I now call my friends.
I took things for granted.
Like having a family, a job, my health, and my fertility.
People too, probably.
I was happy, but I was plodding along.
How in the weeks that followed, everything I knew about myself changed.
How everything I thought I knew about my body changed too.
How after a year of heartbreak and then another of not wanting to take anything for granted, ever again, I left my job, changed my diet and said yes when fear wanted me to say no.
I recently had a blood test, which revealed that my thyroid antibody levels were back within a normal range. People have asked what this means for us now, and I honestly don’t know.
I am a different person.
I have earned my new happiness.
In some ways, when I stand up there again this year, I am sure it will feel a bit like I have come full circle.
What I am really hoping for though, is closure.