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As Good As It Gets

When you are a young child, you talk about what you would like to be when you grow up. You dream big – astronaut, writer, doctor, fireman, landscape gardener, gymnast, politician, deep-sea diver, rock star, teacher, Queen of your own country; or perhaps even all of the above… *coughs* As you enter your teenage years, maybe you start to think about who you will marry.  In my case, it was Michael J Fox and briefly Ralph Macchio, circa The Karate Kid Part 1. Or maybe you will decide that marriage is an outdated institution and not for you at all. I swayed between the two for many years. You explore yourself. You get a sense of who you will become and perhaps more importantly, who you will not. I quickly realised I did not have the education or patience to be a teacher, a doctor, or an astronaut. I did not have the courage of a fireman or a deep-sea diver, the flexibility of a gymnast, or the bloodline to be Queen. I did not have …

Raising My Game

At the end of last year, I thought that my theme for 2013 was going to be a year of new starts.  A couple of weeks later, events took an unexpected turn and I had to reassess. With no longer any guarantees towards the life I had envisioned for us, I revised my theme for 2013 and decided that I was going to make it the year that I pushed myself out of my comfort zone instead. I had been so caught up in a cycle of being pregnant/not being pregnant, looking after a 3-year old boy, while also working full-time on the other side of London, that life seemed to have simply passed me by. I was about to turn 40 and I wanted to take back control.  I did not want to be afraid to really live my life.  I wanted to stop letting fear of the unknown make decisions for me.  I wanted to say Yes to more opportunities than No. I wanted to have fun again, laugh, be impulsive. In the months that …